Friday, 9 September 2016

Today I woke up at 7:30.

I feel great about my determination to start putting down my thoughts every day.

Yesterday around 12:00 PM I had a waterfall of great thoughts pouring out of me. Unfortunately, I did not have a chance to put them down. But I still have an idea in my head what I wanted to say.

In the last couple of years, I have started to dig deep and analyze my behaviors and thought patterns. And also I have tried to shift it, because of the situations I were in.

We all are very different, and that is why I feel the most important thing to start and the sooner, the better, is to realize who YOU really are by questioning yourself and not looking at the others. Don't start with what you want to be, but start with - who you are. For example, I have always been very goal and decision oriented person. I always loved to create everything from scratch, I love to lead and manage, I thrive on competition. And I feel the best when I am in the position where I can 100% rely on myself, and I don’t need others help.

I even remember, at the age of 14-15 when dating thing kicked in, I did not liked when guys paid for me, I always wanted to pay for myself and buy everything myself. I just felt self-contained that way. Of course, thanks to my mom I have relearned this habit and now I understand that there are situations, when you just need to guy pay for it, a specially if he wants. Because for a man, this is also a way how to let out their alpha.

So for me being me, is vital to feel useful and successful. Feel that I have done and created something. That there is a meaning in my existence, and I can give to the world and the people. That I can serve and express myself. I feel happy and powerful when I have an opportunity to lead, to create, to share and to give. Accomplishments drive me. And I want to achieve more and more.

Even though of course I have thought about mothership, and I have had a long relationship, I know deep inside me, that I will not be fully calm and happy if I will not realize myself as a person.

I have started many small business ideas; I even remember when I was 10, I organized 2nd hand toy markets in our yard and sold toys I don’t need anymore to small children. I always enjoyed selling something.

When I was 15, I started to work as a dance teacher and choreographer in the dance school. Every new season was I way to express myself. Every September I would start teaching my dancers new choreographies, so by the end of the year, we can participate in championships. This was a playground for me with competition. And no wonder why my dancers were champions. It was my goal - every year to make sure I create something that is worth the 1st place. And I felt abnormally proud of my dancers and myself.

Success and achievements drive me. That's why now when I don’t compete anymore in dance championships I started to train for the marathon, and I want to compete in Bikini Fitness. And it is not to show off or be a target of all man's eyes in a shiny bikini, but because I just have a desire to set goals and just go for it.

Currently my biggest dream is to have a successful business. And I am out and about to learn and to stumble across what will be the next thing for me.

I can’t stop, and I will never stop. I always want to be the best.

Amen.

Thursday, 8 September 2016

This morning started at 7:40.
I woke up, went to the bathroom, perfected order in the kitchen area.
Drank water, dressed up, took down the trash and went for a run.

Lately, I am listening to a lot of podcasts, at least one or two every day. Every time I am so amazed by the honest stories and life lessons people share. It leaves me with very positive and calming effect on my mind.

I know I am moving in the right direction in my life. Even though I have delayed couple important decisions, I know that this delay was coming from my heart. I felt that this elongated struggle made me tougher.

I am grateful for all the good and all the bad. For all the stress and all the heart warming moments in my life. I love the challenge. And one phrase that came out of one ladies mouth in the birthday last weekend stuccoed into my head. She said: "I love the challenge. It makes my life interesting. Otherwise, I am bored." And I have heard it many times, but this time in interestingly got under my skin with a deeper sense.

Back to me listening podcast every day. Yesterday I relistened one of the "Tim Ferris show" podcast - How Seth Godin Manages His Life — Rules, Principles, and Obsessions. It was so interesting. Also, I need to mention that I am a fan of Seth's content and books. I have a lot of takeaways from his podcast, and one of those is about daily writing. Seth says that everyone should write daily. And he shared the benefits and reason why.

I have noticed that morning writing puts me in a very positive and calm state of mind. It gives me an opportunity to drop down the extra weight from my shoulders and feel light.

And no matter what is happening in my life at that moment, it is a bliss to write, because I can even release unnecessary thoughts and tension through putting mine though down in my Notes.

I have made a decision to move back to London. I feel that I am at that stage in my life when I need a lot of human interactions when I need to take an example from different leaders and develop professionally even further. I want to start living alone and really-truly become myself, do things only for myself and spend as much time experiencing things like - dance, yoga, tantra classes, reading, communicating with people and building new friendships and relationships and doing all that at my pace and at the time I want.

I will be having interviews starting from next week and hopefully I will find a next job opportunity to take on soon. Although, I am not fully quitting my current position. I have seen it growing up from 0 till now having clients in 1040+ cities around the world. I have put all my heart and soul into this, and I will continue helping to grow out products my working in consultancy going to tech meet ups, etc.

I feel so great writing all this down.

My determination is to start waking up every day after 5:00 AM and devote my morning to fitness, self-development, and writing.

Your virtual friend,
Kristina

Wednesday, 7 September 2016

"You don't attract what you want. You attract what you are."

To take your life to the next level, sort things out, get the crystal clear clarity. Get your brain and intuition engaged. Sometimes it is even taking a pause, stepping back and looking from the side. Because the life situation you are in right now, is the exact mirror of your mindset. Your thought and views on life are constantly changing, and your life with them as well. Ask yourself questions, don't be afraid to struggle through, and find people who already been there. This is the answer to getting to the next level. 

Sunday, 4 September 2016

"God will not place a burden on a man's shoulders knowing that he cannot carry it." Quote by professional boxer Muhammad Ali. ☝🏻️

I hundred precent agree and can strongly relate. Life is not interesting and fulfilling if it is easy. Every experience, failure and loss is a knowledge, that can be later translated into a new wisdom that helps you further operate on a higher level with wider perspective on things and life.

Thursday, 25 July 2016

Don't be afraid to get back up to try again, to love again, to live again, and to dream again. Don't let a hard lesson harden your heart. Life's best lessons are often learned at the worst times and from the worst mistakes.

There will be times when it seems like everything that could possibly go wrong is going wrong. And you might feel like you will be stuck forever, but you won't. When you feel like quitting, remember that sometimes things have to go very wrong before they can be right. Sometimes you have to go through the worst, to arrive at your best.

Saturday, 18 June 2016

I am a creative being. I will never stop creating, no matter what the outcome, and no matter how deep my anxieties and insecurities may be.

I have done a lot of great things and I have also failed a lot. Every failure has thought me a lesson and opened a new door to a unknown wisdom.

I love writing blogpost.
I love creating videos.
I love building & shaping my body.
I love speaking in front of the people.
I love inspiring and motivating other people.
I love styling outfits and interior.
I love organizing events.
I love experimenting with my diet.
I love learning about foods and nutrition.
I love learning new things.
I love traveling.
I love meeting and talking with new people.
I love working.
I love expressing myself.
I love crafting tangible things.
I love to change my outlook once in a while.
I love to dance.
I love stretching and feel flexible.
I love to riding a bike.
I love swimming.
I love roller skating.
I love outdoor events.
I love making other people smile.
I love surprising and giving gifts.

I LOVE CREATING!

Thursday, 9 June 2016

Some good stuff from quora:

1. Resources: Time is your most valuable resource, there are no refunds or second chances for the time you waste.

2. Experiences: Spending the 6 months prior to your death completing your bucket list is no way to live as everything you do will be done with a tinge or sadness and regret. Live your life as if you are terminal, you are, and do the things you want without a reason for doing so. Create memories and experience living or your time will expire.

3. Saving: Save a little money every week/month. Nothing gives you happiness like a financial buffer, believe it or not.

4. Never stop learning: Whether that is reading a book, listening to a pod cast or completing a MOOC online. You need to take continue to take responsibility for your own learning and actively pursue means to improve. Read for 1 hour every single day.By reading one hour a day, regardless of your perceived level of knowledge, you can become a world leading expert in any subject in 7 years.

5. Do something different: If you zig when others zag you will avoid being in the majority making it easier to rise to the top. Its far easiest to be great in a smaller pool.

6. Compete against people better than you. Go places where you know you will be at a disadvantage. Competing against superior performers will expose you to strategies which enable you to alter your own. You'll learn tricks and spot hints to improve your own performance you won't learn in years of competing against rookies.

7. Give yourself too little time: Purposefully give yourself less time than you know you need to achieve something. You'll surprise yourself or be forced to invent creative ways to improve your efficiency. It might help you spot trends from alternative industries/activities/sports you can utilise in a new way.

Wednesday, 31 May 2016

My yesterday's/today's thoughts.

I am like a vacuum cleaner. An when I say this, I mean 👉🏻 I have a fantastic super-powers to adopt to different environments. I can easily get used to different situations, challenges and people. And I think this is great.

BUT. But it is not great if I am in this situation for too long, because I am starting to loose myself. Like it becomes hard to be me. I change. And I change not because I wanted, but because I needed to adopt to this situation and switched off a part of me.

Can you relate to this?

Tuesday, 30 May 2016

Life is easy 👉🏻 once you realize that your life equals to your thoughts and actions.

First you create your life in your mind i.e. all the positive and negative thoughts you are thinking. And then "law of attraction" magic does the trick and bring it all into your life.

Be mindful. It is easy to have a great life.

The grateness starts ❗️👉🏻within you.